Secret Court in Britain....2013

https://www.opendemocracy.net/ourkingdom/jo-shaw/secret-courts-8-nightmare-scenarios-now-possible-in-britain-0

This should show that the same kind of thing was happening here when I was trying to get my Order for Protection against Jon Pardue, who worked for the US Government.  He is my cousin, and was stalking me...but he "phoned" in his appearance in court, totally lied to the judge and I was not allowed time to present evidence.  The transcript of the hearing was changed when I got the copy from the court reporter...and then it was stolen along with my copies of the OFP...and I was Denied an appeal.

Irv and the Time Machine (Posted from the Library)

I keep having these Wild Dreams at night that my Uncle Irv has a TIME MACHINE and is taking VAST AMOUNTS OF MY LIFE away while I am stuck in the Twin Cities, Minnesota. In my dreams I have been a Rock Star, a Comic... and been married to the Coolest Guy. Meanwhile, I live in a Youth Hostel with 3 changes of clothing and grooming supplies.
And I have a Younger, Prettier Clone, the reason Uncle Irv keeps me in Exile...he created her to keep me "religious")

IF this were True...Somebody would tell me...Right?

I posted this on my Facebook on Oct 7...before I really came out about the Time Factor.  Glenn Burnside gave me a "LIKE"....and then everything got WAY Normal Style.  Wendy Siobhan Tolonen even spoke up about an Old Fashioned TYPING CLASS!  Are you kidding me?  *smirk*

Went to House of Comedy for Rez's birthday.  I was so fucking sure I would see him again there last night.  That first time in June, when we spoke (and then I went bowling with Earl Elliot and Matt), I was blown away by what I saw in his eyes.  Now the long hot summer is over...and it's time to Fall in Love. 

Cory...it was Awesome to see you onstage last night...and Tommy Ryman...your comedy Blows me Away!  Fucking Genius!  Thank you for the only Lightness of Being I have had in Ages.

Fucking Maddock. *rolls eyes* and *smiles*

Yep...I'm Out here.  I freaking care about you "Grumpy's Guys"...despite the Tazing of 
Gargasmells.

Because  BEFORE All that, BEFORE Pentecostal podunks who were just catching up with current culture decided to become Comedy Kingpins....

You all treated me like a Person.  Like Linda Ophoenix

And I saw the Person inside of Each of you.

We smiled into each others eyes at Acme, Beyond Minnesota Nice...it was Minnesota Kind....we opened up our "inner kinder" to each other.  

Laughter made our Kids come out to Play.

Otter doors, Rez. <3 

HACKED from PostingHere!

How Does Hair Grow Overnight? (updated)

Just Some Time Warp Proof....No Big

I hate these pictures...I took them for the PROOF only and I feel I look ugly in them..I can't post them...See Cozumel.

Longer Lashes Lyric Meanings

"Longer Lashes" by Linda Lou Ophoenix

Longer Lashes

I have floated high above you

Basking in adoring praise

I have stood right here beside you

In so many ways

Now I hold to you the Power

Do exactly as you please

Standing there so strong above me

I fall to my knees…

Tethered to that black seduction

On a line of amethyst

Leather Lover, my salvation

Is drowning in your amber kiss…

I only wish,

For Longer Lashes,

Loving Lashes,

Falling down on me like rain,

Longer Lashes,

Loving Lashes,

You make me feel again.

Take me gently, bind me tightly

As I’m calling out your name

Shove me harder to excite me

It’s our little game.

If you show me tender mercy

I will only beg for more

Now I know you won’t desert me

Right down to my core…

I can taste

That sweet-sick place where

Flesh and lust and maggots feed

Don’t you waste it with your haste now

Slowly Lover, make me bleed,

Cuz all I need…

Are Longer Lashes

Loving Lashes

Falling down on me like rain

Longer Lashes

Loving Lashes

You make me feel again.

When I wrote this song in 1995, I had been in a relationship where the man I was in love with received a unique sexual charge from viewing his partner as a Goddess figure…his romantic, poetic ad said he was looking for his “Queen”.  And he treated me as such in Many ways.  He was always there to support me and remind me of my worth as a person….he would point out my strong points and talents if I doubted myself.  And he was an awesome friend….consort, if you will.  To my physical person…he was  attentive in lovemaking…kissing every molecule of me into self-acceptance.

Yet I found myself with the need to surrender to him.  The more he made me love myself, the more he opened his heart to caress me with tenderness and as much honesty as he could…the more I found myself wanting to Honor him, by kneeling, submitting.  A bowed head and a willing mouth is what I kept wanting to offer him.

This song is about a Loving, Committed Relationship, where in Real Life things are basically Equal…”Best Friends”.  “I have stood right here beside you in so many ways”. Then…in the bedroom, things enter a Different Realm.   One partner is more Dominant in the Lovemaking and one is more submissive.

The Dominant is physically adored…worshipped…by the submissive.

“Longer Lashes” captures a yearning desire in the Dominant to surrender.        

But what does a Dominant surrender to?

The song speaks on about various metaphors for Kinky activities.  “Lashes…falling down on me like rain”…Never having had a punishment beating at that time in my BDSM experience,  I was Definitely  thinking a “gentle” rain.

“Shove me harder”….Never meant to the point of bruises…and Unfortunately, “make me bleed" was a choice of metaphor that has been taken too literally.   As I was such neophyte to the Kink world that I had Never even seen or heard of heavy blood play…it was a small dash of crimson to go with the jewel tones I was painting with.

The “sweet-sick” feeling where “flesh and lust and maggots feed” came from the “funny feeling” I first got in my “tummy” when I was young (late teens, early 20’s) and thought about kinky, Leather-type thoughts.  The first movie I really remember feeling it with was “Videodrome”…and there were Dominatrixes in “Eating Raoul” and both those movies gave me this “On the cliff’s edge” feeling….but there was something More.   Something Dizzy.  Something I didn’t know until a friend left some hamburgers in my oven…and I found them 4 days later.  They were ROILING with maggots.  I just Stopped, …shocked…and Stared.  I was Entranced for seconds.  The undulating movement, the sheen of their plump rice shaped bodies…all bursting in shining waves of glistening gray.  There was even a Sound.

Take the cliff’s edge and roiling maggots…add the most intense sexual arousal you can imagine and that is my “Sweet-Sick Place”  I don’t know how I put that all together, but I think and feel in images…and that was how my early Kink experiences felt to me….a pleasant “funny feeling” with an edge.

Much has been made about the “Amber Kiss”.  Amber is golden yellow. Yellow is the color of “slow down” as a Safe Word (Red=Stop, Green=Go).  Amber is for remembrance…as the ancient past can get trapped in it’s liquid form and fossilized.  Or, it could be, like I was thinking at the time, a secret shared between a couple….an intimacy that is one of the top ten fantasies….a golden shower.  (Really no big deal…especially if a rare and special occasion and done IN the SHOWER!)

In the end, the song really does ask the question “What does a Dominant surrender to?”

Through all the talk of wanting to give over “Power” to the other partner… there is the focus on Self-Enjoyment, and even an Orderly Tone “Don’t you waste it, with your haste, now, Slowly..”  INSTRUCTING the person whom you have just told could do Exactly as they pleased.

And that is why Longer Lashes is a Love Song first and foremost.   It is about Relationship.  Because kinky sex takes communication if it is going to be Meaningful.  And partners need to have a level of Intelligence and Tolerance of each other’s needs. 

Because no submissive is always 100% submissive, and no Dominant is always 100% Dominant.  To pigeonhole a person in a role 24/7/365 is to deny them part of their human nature.  Because we have instincts that allow to react according to varying situations.

Training a person out of any dominant or self-preservation feelings could be lethal….So could the social pressure of having to be “Dominant” ALL the time and Never showing your vulnerabilities.

Relationship, trust and vulnerability is the conversation that “Longer Lashes” is supposed to open up.

If it Ever has been Misinterpreted as being anything else…that makes me sad.

Linda Lou Ophoenix

Hey, I'm Hip to Rez

http://www.alcor.org/Library/html/cellrepairmachines.html

Gratitude and Attitude

I had my son over at the Hostel for an overnight last weekend.  That was the first time since the beginning of the summer and it was Awesome to have some extra time with him.   We went to the park to enjoy some of the beautiful fall weather and read library books.   French toast for breakfast.  I miss cooking for my family.

I have been doing comedy at the Nicollet on Sunday nights.   It has been keeping me on-stage even though I have not been getting on at CCUG, nor have I gotten a response back from the booker on Facebook about my status.   Took a break from ACME for a while...got sick of the AxeMan hacking me off the list!   I might try Spring Street soon....but I want to write some new material.  Keep it Fresh.

I do have an Open Mic spot coming up on Nov 3 at House of Comedy.  Much Gratitude for that.

I did a poem about the torture at Nicollet.  Made it funny.  Funny words, funny voice.   They have all kinds of readings there....it was as much "Alice in Wonderland" as a couple of other spoken word performers.

Art...Doesn't have to be Beautiful...Shouldn't Hurt....SHOULD Provoke THOUGHT!

The Scream by Edvard Munch...Pastel on Cardboard (one of 5 versions of the image)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Did you hear what he heard?

Lenny Bruce Resurrected

You are my Hero
You Hold it
Totes, Man.
<3

Christian Kind

"What Kind of Christian are you?"  

I have often asked people that question.  Sometimes I phrase it as "What Brand of Christianity do you follow"

I grew up with a church who thought they would be the only ones in Heaven.  That always made me sad.  I wanted Everyone to end up at the big coffee clutch in the sky.   (That's how I pictured it....that in Heaven, all the grown ups would be sitting around drinking coffee Forever!)

I branched out as I got older.  Became tolerant, understanding as I learned about new religions.  Started picking up some Wisdom here and there from other faiths.  

Some Words Ring True No Matter From Where They Originate.

Because Wisdom speaks to our Rational Minds...Our Balanced Hearts.

I just watched some 6 year old YouTube Videos of mine.   

I called myself a "Wiccan" at that time.   I worshipped Jesus and Mary as a God and Goddess..."a Holy Couple"  (I didn't even admit to the Jesus and Mary part on the videos....I think I was trying to impress the Atheists on YouTube)

I was Glib.

I was Sure of myself at the time.  I knew what I believed...I felt right in my path.  It was a reasonably happy period in my life.

Watching them now, I can see how my family thought I was "full of myself"

It's Still.....None of Their Business.

None of Their Right to Torture me for Speaking my Mind...on YouTube or in Comedy Clubs.

I do have the Right to Free Speech.

I have the Right to Change my Opinion with New Information also.

Making a mistake, or changing an opinion with incoming information does not make one weak.

It's Intelligent to be Flexible enough to be able to Change your Opinion.

It's a mark of Bravery to be able to admit...I was *there* in my knowledge Yesterday---but now that I am *here* today and know more, I can make Different Decisions.

One thing that I had wanted to be Consistent with from the time I was young was to be a person who showed Love to other people....True, Selfless (without Losing Myself)* Honest, Kindness.

From Pentecostal to Catholic to Wiccan to "Nouveau Christian" I have wanted to be a Kind.

 Kind comes from "kinder"....German for "children"

We are to treat each other the way we are (and this is the IMPORTANT part) SUPPOSED to treat Children.

Children are supposed to be nurtured, cared for, protected, fed, and loved appropriately.

They are NOT supposed to be smothered, mistreated, beaten, neglected or otherwise treated inappropriately.

Some---see in the word Mankind this picture:

       Man
___________             Or......Man OVER Kinder (Child)

       Kind 

As if Man has an innate Right to Dominate a child due to his Physical Size and Power.

It's Not True.  We have a Responsibility to each other.

 Jesus was asked this very question by a Pharisee who was considered to be “an expert in the law” (Matthew 22:34–36). Jesus answered by saying, “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and most important commandment. The second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets depend on these two commandments” (Matthew 22:37–40)

What Kind of Christian am I?   

I just want to work on being a Kind Christian.

Does this mean Never swearing or being sarcastic in my comedy or writing.---Nope.

My God loves me and understands me---even if my Family doesn't.

That's why I Can't Shake the Spirit
  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pfxexL9I9jw

*Selfless without Losing Myself...Because if you Lose Yourself by Giving to People....Or Even God....Then You have NOTHING Left to Give.
I believe that Our Loving God does Not ask More from us than we can give without Losing Ourselves...He asks for Gratitude, and Love for our Neighbors.
Selfless does NOT mean a life of suffering.